08/01/2025: The Best Thing I Can Do

There isn’t much floating around in my brain today; I’m just here. After a whirlwind of realizations about myself and the feelings that came with them, I guess I’m still a little distant and quiet in general. 

It’s good to challenge your beliefs about who you are, but no one said it wouldn’t hurt like hell. That’s what they call the path less traveled, and I certainly understand why it’s less traveled. But I’m one of those people that would be just as lost if I couldn’t feel. I’d rather be hyperaware than in denial or distracted, and so I’ll just let this wave of deep thoughts and feelings pass in its own time. 

In more uplifting news, I’ve achieved another pretty significant goal and I now have a rough draft to a novella that I may self-publish. I’m also taking a certificate program in hopes of expanding my editing skills so I can find a job in the realm of creative writing while sharpening my skills for my own endeavors. Things feel like they are coming together in a lot of ways, and if I wasn’t sure before that I wanted to do this for a living then I’m positive now. 

The best thing I can do is just do. I won’t get better without practice and lots of failure, and I won’t know until I really try to put myself out there for the world to see. I’m finally to a point where not doing it is more terrifying, so I look forward to my next challenge in growth in that department, hopefully in the form of a self-published passion project.

I’m trying to remind myself that this is a no pressure type thing, a thing I can do just for the sake of doing it. Of course I want something to take off, but something in me wants to share this particular series of stories, regardless of how well it does. Just as long as it exists in the world, I’ll feel accomplished, and the reality of a full fledged novel of mine being out there one day might just become more tangible. 

Either way, I’m happy with the direction I’m headed, despite deep thoughts weighting heavily on my mind.