03/04/2026: No Matter What and No Matter Where
Recently, I decided to let go of the fear and uncertainty I feel about my next life chapter. This morning I had the thought that I’d much rather live year to year—even day to day—if it meant I could do what I love. This realization makes the risk worth taking in my mind, and I’m nothing short of ready.
Years and many decisions have brought me to this moment, and I feel like I’m where I’m supposed to be. No matter what it looks like on the outside, and no matter what anyone thinks about my choices, I’m confident moving forward, and I can’t wait to embark on this new adventure. At least I’m not giving up everything, even though I am leaving a lot of people and things I love behind. I know that where I’m going, there is community and there is family, and that I won’t be alone there. I’m at a point where needing these things, and leaning a little more on them, feels perfectly okay to me.
I’m eager for simplicity in many aspects, and ready to take that deep breath and dive into the unknown. I already know that all the sacrifices are and will be worth it, even if all this does is give me more peace of mind for a little while. The world has been too chaotic and loud lately, and I need a hard reset. I need solitude, I need nature, and I need the things that feed my soul. And even if where we’re going is a stepping stone that launches us to the next amazing thing, I’ll be grateful for this transition period, and I’ll make the most of it.
As I count down the days until we head home, I’ve been reminiscing on my time here in Colorado as well. The two years we’ve been here have been nothing short of extraordinary, and I’ll never forget them. If I could move what I have here to where I’m going, I would do it in a heartbeat; Texas could use some better weather and a few more open minds in my opinion, and it could also use a place where likeminded creatives can come together and do what they love.
If I don’t find a place like that back home, I think it’s time that I try to create one of my own. I know it’s an important part of my life, and that I may have to work a little harder to make it happen in my new situation, but I feel more determined than ever to pursue the things that mean a lot to me, the things that make me the hopeless creative I am. I’d love to share that passion with anyone who might be searching for that part of themselves, with a strong desire to make it happen but no place to do it.
Maybe once I get settled into the new day-to-day, I’ll take that plunge. But all I know for sure right now is that I have to keep writing, and I have to keep dreaming, no matter what and no matter where. I can only hope that Caleb and I find what we’re looking for in this next season of life, and more than we ever dared to imagine before.