02/11/2026: Okay
For the first time in a long time, I have successfully tackled the week with intention. I set some reasonable goals and I’ve already accomplished them two days in, which is just what I needed right now.
A week ago, I realized why I’ve been so mentally and physically drained, and I took action. I can’t believe I actually forgot about my favorite pastime: escaping to nature. That used to be all I thought about, all I planned my life around. But I let myself forget in the midst of everything going on in the world and in my personal life.
Over the past couple months—probably ever since the start of 2026—I’ve let social media and news consume my waking hours and violate my mental health. I’ve made up more excuses than I would’ve liked in regards to creative goals and day-to-day to-dos. But after realizing this, I’ve been working hard to correct these issues, and I realized the first step in that process is to identify the source of my inner turmoil and make an active effort to improve my circumstances.
Sometimes I feel bad for feeling bad, because I know that I don’t have it near the worst compared to others. But my pain and damaged wellbeing is relative to me, and the one thing I can say for certain is that I haven’t been myself for a while, and I just want to be okay again.
So I finally voiced my desires aloud, and I booked that cabin. I finished that book I wanted to finish this week, and I’ve started that new short story I’ve been wanting to start. Olympic men’s hockey has finally started, and I’m just trying to enjoy the fact that the world can still come together in these dark times, and set aside their differences in order to represent their respective countries. It truly is beautiful to witness, and I’m glad that people are still speaking out about what’s in their hearts as they congregate for sport, because it’s still important, especially when we’re looking to the world to encourage peace and love in a time when these things are severely lacking.
Whether it’s war we’re going through or a passionate fight to take back the rights of a city, we all could use kind words and support right about now. No one will ever be a “loser” for speaking out against injustice, and anyone who is saying so from their homes, safe behind their keyboards, is just jealous that they weren’t invited to and aren’t welcome at the party. They’ll never understand the importance of setting aside our differences and finding common ground, and it’ll be their loss.
I’m proud of my country for representing the values we’ve lost touch with as of late, and even more so for denouncing the hate and corruption that the general population—including other nations in the world—despises. You just can’t be mad at the truth, and if you are, then that’s your sign that you need to take some time for reflection to see why exactly you don’t align with the proponents of positive change, justice, and love—the only thing more powerful than hate. Those of us that want a better world do not side with you, and we won’t be silenced for being authentic and speaking truth when you won’t.
And I’ll take this state of mind through the rest of my week, I’ll go get the mental healing I so desperately need right now, and I’ll return to continue defending the morals and values I hold dear that make me who I am, no matter how hard it may be, because if I’m going to fight for anything, these things are the most worth it to me.