05/24/2025 (Home Day 6): Quality VS Quantity

My last night at home is finally here. It feels like it went by at a normal pace, but at the same time it feels like it flew by. Either way I feel fulfilled and rejuvenated in a lot of ways. 

I got to see everyone and make new memories with them, and I know that if Caleb and I decide to come home that they’ll all be happy. I think I’ll be happy too, knowing that my love might be happier and that we can finally forge ahead on this creative path of ours. I find myself thinking about him tonight, and I’m ready to see him again after ten days. 

I know with some people that absence makes the heart grow fonder, but it seems like for us that the second we’re apart we already miss one another. And it’s not a dependent thing; it’s just a pure love for one another that thrives when we’re together and somehow only grows when we’re reluctantly apart. As I kick off my long travel day tomorrow, I’ll be counting down the miles until I can be home with him again. 

Home has two different meanings for me now: the place I grew up and have always known, and the place that I found in the love of my life. I can’t wait to get back and tell him everything about what I did and every moment I missed him in between. And I really look forward to bouncing the ideas I came up with concerning our potential move off him. There’s a lot to unpack and to turn over, even more so to think through. But I tried my best to think about what a new day to day would look like here, and the image began to start taking shape. 

I know there’s a lot of things we’ll have to do, and we’ll have to sacrifice a lot of time and even money to get everything done. But I get excited when I think about the challenge, and even more so when I think about finally having something to call our own, something that I hope will be a labor of love to complete and move into together next year. 

It’s not the quantity of things that’s driving us; it’s the quality of life that a transition to this place might offer us after years of stumbling and aimlessly searching for what we really wanted. It’s all we can think about, and neither one of us has backed down from the idea or the challenge yet. 

So maybe that’s a promising sign, considering the fact that this is the only opportunity that has come knocking that actually seems plausible and doable at this potentially pivotal point for us.