05/20/2025 (Home Day 2): One Hundred Percent On Board

After my first full day at home I feel settled back in. The day has been full of great conversation and laughs and good movies. For once I’m trying not to be in a rush to have all my plans in a neat row, and I’m trying to savor the moments of rest and leisure in between. 

Tomorrow I get to start visualizing what it might look like to come back home. I know the idea is still new and pretty obscure, that I just need to really think it all the way through and see everything for myself. I know this is the most promising ticket to something new that we’ve thought of so far, and for once we actually have a sliver of hope. It would be all about sacrifice if we go this route, but I think we’re ready to be okay with that.

I don’t know if anyone actually believes me when I tell them, but Caleb and I truly are best friends, and we want to make a decision that allows us to do what makes us happy and lets us spend as much of the rest of our lives together as we can. We just don’t want to waste any more time not trying to achieve this, and I don’t think we’re asking for too much at this point in our lives.

The only problem with me being home right now is the fact that he’s not here with me. I always miss our routine, just sharing our lives and being near each other. That’s how I know that home is wherever we are together, chasing our dreams side by side. So that’s what makes me think we might move forward with this plan. 

A lot of things would have to go right for the plan to work, and a lot of things could go wrong in the course of a year. But I know if we’re going to do this that we’re being smart by waiting a while, planning and saving and preparing for a decent period of time so that this isn’t another decision we make that we might feel like we rushed into. I just know that we’ve made our fair share of those rapid fire decisions - albeit some were out of our control when multiple pressing matters forced our hand at inopportune times. Either way, that’s why we have to make sure we’re both one hundred percent on board for this thing to actually happen. 

But the more we think about it, the more it seems like a gratifying idea to have a place of our very own that we can build and fill with love as we get closer and closer to that ideal life and the happiness we hope comes along with it.