04/04/2025: Golden Day 1

It feels like the world is in a period of change for the sake of change, and I’ve been having a hard time with all the minor inconveniences that add up to a stressful and doom-filled whole. But I tried my best to wait as patiently as I could for the time I could escape to nature again, and the day is finally here. 

We arrived to a beautiful snow covered, tree filled wonderland, where my worries immediately washed away and I fell back into that familiar rhythm that I’m so accustomed to out in nature. The silence and distance away from all the noisy and unwelcome parts of the world are all that matters out here, and I’ll make the most of it with the one I love most, as always. 

I’ve been telling myself that I need to tune out of the world for a while now, and I’m just now coming around to acceptance on that front. I’ve turned my news notifications off on my devices and have slowly been coming back to my work after a fun period of retrospection and introspection, where there was no pressure and I got to embark on my writing journey again from start to finish. I’m starting to find some direction again, and I’ve learned that urgency doesn’t necessarily cultivate creativity. So I decided to slow down and stop being so rigid with my work schedule, and I already know that it will pay off in time. 

I heard recently that you may fail at what you don’t want to do, so you might as well do what you want. And it’s so true. I can’t fail if I don’t take a chance at any rate, and so I have to prepare for a lot of learning and failure to really pursue this thing. But above all, I know I don’t want to lose the aspect of wonder and fun I came to know when I pursued writing again in the first place, because if I lose that then I don’t know who I’m doing it for. And that’s not the point of creative ventures. 

Sure, eventually you may have an audience to cater to, but what’s the point if they aren’t in it for the sake of you and what you really love? I always hear that the right people will find you if you just do the thing that matters to you, and I suppose that’s true too. It may take a long time and it may be a meager few, but I know that being authentic is well worth it. And that’s all I want to be in this world that’s in a constant state of unwanted change: authentic, steadfast, and passionate about something.